After all...

Salam...

Its been such a longgggggggggggggg time I havent update my blog.. So many things happened.. Sampai lupa ada blog sendiri...

My life... still d same.. being a wife & mother, watching my baby girl, Rees grow up each day... She is resemblance of her Abah... She's now going to be 6 months this 14th december.. Changing to solid food, insyaallah.. Hmm da pandai merajuk skrg... Glad to see her development. da pandai meniarap & berguling& mengesot too! tak boleh lepas sekejap, she'll be every corner of the house.. Her looks changing too, more towards feminine... kehkehkeh.. puas pakaikan dress cantik2, still orang ingat dia BOY.. aku tensi! :D

this is me with BABY REES at 4 MONTHS ++

Well.. I'm now working, one of the newest automotive college somewhere in Cheras... da masuk 2 weeks.. so far ok.. cuma ada difficulties to find more students... They hired me because I've got several years of working in education industries... quite relaxing job too.. tapi tak tahule bila classes da start nnti.. Ooo yes, I just resigned from an interior design company about a month ago before I joined this company... had problem coping up with the environment, paling tak tahan asyik balik lambat sampai malam and kene marah ngn boss.. Balik rumah pon asyik STRESS je.. always complaint about what I've gone thru for the day to WN...So.. X HEALTHY la kan? LEBIH BAIK QUIT... ALHAMDULILAH REZEKI ALLAH TA'ALA ADA KAT MANA2..

Being a wife, mother & working at the same time, its not an easy task... I always asked other working wife-mother for their tips & exp espc managing the time.. I wonder my late mom coped up very well before.. I'm still doing at my best.. Kdg2 tu bila da penat mixed my mood swings , rasa macam too much too handle... But WN being WN... byk sabar & somtimes tegur me apa yg patut.. keh keh keh.. Sometimes he suggested a lot of other options to ringankan beban esp doing the remeh-temeh like laundry & house cleaning.. I hope bibik is coming soon.. i really need assistance...

Pssttttt.. Rees Insyaallah will jadi KAKAK next year... :D

So its about lunch time, I GTG.. sambung lain kali.. ta-ta! :D

Our 1st wedding anniversary.. :)

Salam.. huhuhu...

Asyik bercerita pasal anak je dlm blog lately...

09082009..genap 1 tahun for me & WN as a husband & wife.. how time flies it is kan? Honestly, byk jugak things that we gone thru together within a year.. Tak sedar da setahun.. the good and the bad times too.. so far alhamdulilah we both still strong.. And, I bet there are more to come.. But I will not putus doa for His blessing... Hoping for many more happiness to come for the 2 of us.. eh.. lupa.. for the 3 of us now, dibukakan pintu rezeki, kuatkan semangat kami berdua sebagai suami isteri, di jauhkan penyakit & malapetaka yg bahaya, dilindungi dari segala fitnah hidup dan mati, dikurniakan cahaya mata yg solehah serta celik pandai & last but not least.. jodoh berpanjangan dan diberkati hingga akhirat, InsyaAllah.. Wah panjangnya doa.. sangat specific kan?? My dad always remind me, kalau nak doa, kene mintak 'specific' and jangan putus doa, doa apa yang kita nak betol2, tapi kene ikhlas dan niat kerana TUHAN yang satu... Sebabnya DOA tu Ibu segala Ibadah.. InsyaAllah, HE will always answer to your prayers and HE won't disappoint you ..

Our 1st anniversary celebration??

Hmmm.. simple je, xde apa sgt.. nak jalan jauh agak limited sebabnya sekarang ni H1NI disease, and our baby Rees pon belom genap 60hari.. So for the sake of it, we decided not to pegi tmpat yg agak crowded with ppl.. BTW, WN cooked smthig special yesterday.. Beef Stew, English style ok... :D Then ptg sikit jalan2 we took a stroll at the Titiwangsa Lake with our baby Rees.. Eventhough its a public place, but its not covered.. So Alhamdulilah it was a nice evening together, tak panas & tak hujan .. We had a chat at the warung nearby, talking whats our plan in future.. everything went smoothly that day.. Simple kan..?

So my dearest WN.. If you are reading this, Happy 1st anniversary.... Hope we will cherish all the moments together, the good & bad time..Thanks for loving & being so understanding hubby and most important is..
Thanks for accepting me for who I am..

Maafkan if my bahasa kadang2 agak kasar to u which sometimes I sedar & tak sedar these days, I know u won't mention it because u berhati2 with my situation now.. hehehehe...

::Love u always.. ::

Psst: I dont know why, I asyik panggil u Abah lately instead of Bee..

wondering if all mothers out there gone thru what I've gone thru..

Salam...

Nothing much to say... Rite now, all I can say my energy level is so low each day.. Tak tahu smpai bila buleh tahan with this condition... Rees have been quite demanding lately, nak kene angkat selalu.. Bile letak je, she will be crying asking me to carry her.. My arm da rasa lenguh, kdg2 makan pon da x menentu skrg.. Probbly selalu dimanjakan by her aunties... Ni pon 'curi time' to tulis blog to let out my feelings as Rees is sleeping, & me waiting for my bro to fetch me for dinner to my dad's place... Da tentu malam ni Rees will be waking up through out the nite, she's been sleeping since 6pm after her bathtime... I can imagine what a nite will be for me to go thru... ::sigh::

Due to my current condition, being 'zombie' all the time, I don't know whether it DOES lead to my emotional reaction.. I wonder does all mothers out there go thru what I go thru rite now.. Sometimes i just want to take a time off, because I have no space for myself... Aku rasa aku da x kenal diri aku eversince ada anak.. I'm not saying I'm a cruel mother, but that's how I felt rite now..

Apa yg org cakap, even WN , somtimes I just can't take it... It does makes me feel worst, hopeless & useless all the time... I tried my best to holding on but I'm just a human being, I do breakdown sometimes... I do feel as if I'm falling apart, but deep down I always say to myself, my baby needs me, and that's what keeps me moving on, but sampai bila??

Yes, I admit, today is a hard day for me to go thru... Its just one of my bad hair day.. Lately, selalu sgt ada bad hair day.. Do I need help?? Or is it another /normal thinggy that all new mothers hv to thru?? ::sigh again::

WN admit that he sometimes 'terasa hati' with the things I said to him.. Ntahla.. aku pon ada jugak terasa... Wondering if I've been asking too much?? or is it me being too sensitive or demanding?? My time is very tight attending to Rees.. I have no words to say.. speechless.. I hate this feeling.. Fikiran pon start kusut, really cannot think straight... :(

I hope I will get over with this feeling yang tak best langsung ni..

On my own...

Salam..
Its been 5 days I'm here in KL ,at my lovely home... Its great to be home.. I'm still in my 32 days of confinement... Bila balik rumah sendiri, semua kene buat sendirila, kecuali masak.. Luckily, WN will prepare for me after he got back from work.. Esoknya makan lauk yg sama, reheat dalam microwave je.. At nights, we take turns bangun to feed Rees, this part I like the most, because masa staying at my mertua's, malam la paling sakit... Phewww.. Husband Mithali :P

Rite now, my baby is sleeping.. Tghari ni tidur pulak dia... Puas kejutkan still dia buat 'don-no' x nak bangun.. Semalam Mama Ngah (JH, her aunty, my sister) came with her kids.. Wah, Rees di layan, di peluk , di dukung by Mama Ngah... Lama jugak la, malam tu Rees selalu merengek minta diangkat... Letih aku & WN dibuatkannya... Luckily she fall asleep around 12am... Then, Rees hanya bangun evry 2-3 hours nak susu je..

oooo ya.. the house da berwajah baru.. WN rearranged the house.. Habis berubah , a better arrangement actually, nmpak luas than before...

Eversince ada anak... I'm always busy... busy attending her, mcm skrg she's sleeping, so dapatla relax kejap & online on the internet. Sometimes, I missed my meal... nak mandi pon, I'll make sure I feed her & put her to sleep so that I can carry on..

Malam tadi I start feeding her with new formula... WN & I tried to feed her 'Nestle Lactogen'.. We fed her with S-26 before, but as her Mak Su dia kata, "Mahal S-26 tau, skrg x lah terasa, da besar sikit nnti, kene beli pack 2 pack besar monthly" Hmmm.. Alhamdulilah, so far till now, it seems Rees has no problem taking the new formula.. Harap2 the new formula suits he, manala tahu kut-kut tak sesuai pulak nantikan..

Oops my baby is awake pulak.. So continue later.. Banyak nak tulis ni.. Sabarrrrrr :D

Everyday I'm a zombie-mom!

Salam...

Phewww... Eversince ada baby.. mmg x pernah cukup tidur... Setiap mlm akan berjaga setiap 2 jam.. My baby nak susu.. Kdg2 bile time nk expressed my own milk terus tak tido selama 3 hours... My friends used to remind me while I was pregnant before "Mas, u better get enough sleep before the baby comes out!" Masa tu endah dgn x endah je apa member2 ckp... Yelah x pernah merasa lagi jaga mlm...kan??

Each nite terasa hubby tiada di sisi... Yelah sejak berpantang, WN is a weekend husband/daddy.. So kalau dia smpai Jumaat, mlm tu he will take over the 'stand-by-mode-duty' like feeding Rees & changing her diapers.. Barulah aku buleh tido utk beberapa jam.. Itupon terpaksa bgn & spend abt 1 hour to express my milk..

This coming Sunday, I'll be back to KL.. Balik rumah sendiri.. Cukup sebulan berpantang di rumah mertua.. lepas ni pantang la sendiri... Tak tahu la mcm nanti uruskan segalanya dgn sendirinya espc bila laundry time.. Kat sini aku di layan sperti puteri raja, kain baju semua ada org buatkan... Harap2 I could manage well bila di rumah sendiri nanti.. Nasib baik we decided to 'upah' his aunty to cook for me everyday... Kalau x, tak tahu la mcm nak manage semuanya nanti..

Rees semakin sihat .. alhamdulilah.. setiap hari I'm learning new things being mother... The most exciting moment is taking Rees for bathtime!! Itssss so stress reliefing... Her bathtime creates the bonding btween me & her stronger... Rees really enjoyed her moment too! :D

Rite now sejak brestfeed, I got myself hungry easily.. I consumed a lot of food lately... Dulu masa mula2 bersalin, aku ada control my food intake, tapi sejak kene 'sound' with my in laws, aku da makan byk.. To them, I'm eating for 2 person... So x payah nak mengada-ngada control makan! Yela simptom NAIK BADAN is one of the scariest thing for each women epsc lepas bersalin... But I will control my diet bile Rees d 2-3months old...
WN advise for me to start diet masa pregnant dulu2 bila da abis pantng nanti... Let's see mana yg brjaya utk my diet!

So okla.. my baby da bunyi alarm, tanda nk susu la tu.. I'll write more soon.. Perhaps I should put the latest pict of me & Rees later... hehehehe...

Seing her growing up day by day..

Rees now 19 days old today.. kejap nak masuk 3 weeks old.. Rasa mcm baru smlm 'meneran' dia keluar dari perut.. Hahahaha...

A lot of changes I see in her lately like :
1. Her look: Totally 100% muka Abahnya.. Xde langsung muka aku... Hmmm... Anyway muka dia berubah setiap hari..
2. Her cheek: Looks chubbier now.. byk minom susu.. Minom setiap 2 jam pagi & malam..
3. Her movements: Very active.. Selalu gerakkan tangan & tendang2 kaki when she's awake.. Skrg bila tak dibendung da sibuk2 nak mengiring ke kiri and capai apa yg dapat di capai epsc during changing her diapers.. Skrg da pandai sepak botol susu when she finished minom...
4. Her weight: Last week she weighed about 3.5kg... Skrg ni mesti la naik lagi...
5. Her favourite time: Tgh malam ajak main or borak.. Skrg dia da suka mandi sbb mandi air suam.. best la kan! And of course bila Abahnya ada di sisi! :D
6. Her nightmare!!: Still x nak suckle my breast.. This the time where she will cry like nobody else business! So I can't breastfeed her direct.. kene bagi pakai botol.. ::sigh:: That's why I have to perah susu setiap 3- 4 jam sehari..

Apa lagi... O ya.. the day when she was born, I can barely see her eyebrow.. Mmg takde bulu kening, macam kene cukur.. Yesterday while I was feeding her, I saw a thin black line appearing on her forehead.. Hah da ada bulu kening! Alhamdulilah...

So far, she's doing good.. Still xde buat hal like menangis kuat2 or meragam.. Mamanya pon still adjusting with the time to handle her.. Byk lagi yg Mamanya still need to learn... Its a matter of experiencing it everyday.. & the challenge of coping up.. Buleh sabar ke tak...

Ok that's all I can share at this moment, still a lot more to go.. My mom in law dok risau I mengadap PC/monitor while writing this blog.. She will say like "Mas, don't strain your eyes, pegila relax!" hehehehe

Salam.. Have a nice weekend! :)

My precious,,,,, Baby Rees :)

Salam all!

I'm back.. Still in my confinement... I'm now in Seremban at my in law's place.. Kira berpantang di sini.. Will return to KL by 11th or 13th July for good... Too bad my mom in law not so well lately.. She got some limitation in her movements , ditambah her maid has to go back to Indonesia for a month.. So kira 'patah kaki' la my mom in law to jaga me & Baby Rees..

OO yess.. Baby Rees.. That's what me & WN called our new baby..

So far I'm enjoying the moments taking care of rees.. Being the 1st time Mom, its not an easy job... Its such a new thing in my entire life!! Especialy perubahan waktu e.g tak cukup tido.. :) Luckily, baby rees is not a colic baby... Xde melalak tak tentu pasal.. Merengek hanya hendak susu or she feels uncomforable with her 'bekalan' in her diapers. Hehehe.. Alhamdulilah me & WN being blessed to have baby Rees with us...

Eventhough I'm enjoying the moment with Rees, I'm still coping up the task being a mother.. Thank God, for a meantime my in laws being taking a good care of me so far..

Ok now, how shall I start... macam mana baby rees bule keluar or in the other proper sentence, how do I deliver baby Rees?? :)

Phewww.. Terus terang I vaguely remembered what happened before or during the time I delivered baby Rees.. My hubby did mentioned every single moment how & what I've gone before & during the delivery... He was there throughout the day and nite with me.. Seriously.. I tak berapa ingat.. because... I was in a great pain for almost one whole day.. In medical term they call it as ' the contraction pain before labour' or 'labour pain''.. Sekarang baru aku faham kenapa orang selalu kata, sakit nak bersalin adalah dikatakan sebagai 'Mother of all the pain'.. Memang sakit tak ingat.. Sakit yg tidak boleh di bayangkan atau diceritakan sesia[a.. Hanya perempuan yg hendak bersalin sahaja yg akan rasa sakit yg Tuhan bagi itu... Phewwwww..

:: kalau sesiapa ingin tahu lebih lanjut about what I've gone thru, u may go to this link http://nokman.wordpress.com/2009/06/19/and-then-there-were-three/::

Alhamdulilah setelah 'berperang' dgn menahan sakit contraction selama lebih dari 9 jam, akhirnya Tuhan telah memberi keizinan, kemudahan & tenaga untuk aku bersalin secara normal.. Memang aku tak sangka aku telah dapat melahirkan baby Rees secara normal..

Mas Hareessa Nokman bt Muhammad Wafa dilahirkan pada 14 Jun 2009 (Ahad), pada 6.34am di Hospital Ampang.. beratnya 3.05 kg..

After battling with the great pain, baby Rees selamat dilahirkan.. Tiba2 hilang semua sakit.. Sejuk hati memandang pada insan kecil ni .. Somemore aku sudah menjadi Mama and WN sudah pon menjadi Abah... Both responsibilities sudah secara automatik and pon bertambah... Our priorities has changed now... Semua focus beralih kepada anak :)

Rees now aged 15 days old today.. I'm still learning being the 1st time mom... trying all the best to take care, educate and nurture her as she is now my daughter.. Wah aku da ada anak!! Memang x sangka..manusia yg serba kekurangan seperti aku, Tuhan masih memberi peluang dan rezeki untuk memikul tanggungjawab sebagai Ibu...

Sampai disini sahaja utk entry kali ini.. perhaps aku akan ceritakan lagi those great moments seeing Hareessa growing up each day.. :)

Salam...